"Walking with Jesus..."

The Next 10 Years

Time: 740pm
Place: Burger King at Ikea

While waiting for B, I was flipping through "Her World" when a feature caught my eye. The article was about this lady who gave up her job to volunteer in Timor.

I've always drawn up practical and concrete plans in order that my dreams might be fulfilled. Even though I consider myself quite 'slack' and not proactive in many aspects, in my little ways, I've tried to make my dreams attainable visions.

Since I was 18, I've had a rough 10 year plan that was progressively set in motion.
JC-Uni-NIE-Bond => 10 years

With the 10 year plan coming into fruition in the near future, the magazine article suddenly prompted me that I should start thinking about the next 10 years after the bond. Actually, I've known more or less that equipped with my PGDE and teaching experience, I want to either do humanitarian work or go into the mission field (the later is dependent on specific calling though since childhood, I've been dedicated to do God's work. Mission specific? I don't know yet.).

Even though certain preliminary groundwork have been set in short term mission trips and YEPs, things are still kinda hazy. The details in the magazine article like specific organization the lady volunteered in jolted me into awareness that I have to read up/network etc.

My inner, love-to-plan self started ringing alarms: Think girl! Think! Keep an eye open from now on...

But more importantly, I have to start praying about the relationship with B too.

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Time: 1130pm
Place: Hall

Before reading the verse for QT, I prayed. When praying in tongues, the HS gave me the impression that I was praying about cell group.

As I continued praying, I started crying. It's been a while since I've cried in the presence of the Lord. God revealed to me that my anger at cell mate's comments/concern is not really anger but great hurt. There is much fear and loneliness that no one is supportive of my relationship with B.

Then it finally became clear why God put me through this. Because if I didn't feel so helpless about the r/s with B, I wouldn't submit the relationship to God...

Father, forgive me for my earlier stubbornness. Of bargaining with you and wanting to keep an aspect of my life out of your control. Lord, I cannot do without You. Please be in my relationship with B... Keep us safe and in your path.

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God is wonderful, merciful and faithful to His promise. The verse today was Genesis 12:1-9.

Even though I might have wandered off God's intentions, His promise and destiny for me still holds true. Thank you God for speaking to me still. And in comforting me.

1 The LORD had said to Abram, "Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you.

2 "I will make you into a great nation
and I will bless you;
I will make your name great,
and you will be a blessing.

3 I will bless those who bless you,
and whoever curses you I will curse;
and all peoples on earth
will be blessed through you."

Wow! =)

posted by cLoUd DriFteD bY @ 9:07 AM