QT and Partner
Luke 11: 8 says:
“I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man’s boldness he will get up and give him as much as he needs.”
Verse 9 continues with:
“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
What did I ask? My sabbatical year will end in July and I’m starting to wonder what I should do after that… So today, I boldly asked, (and it is bold coz I struggle with not wanting to seem desperate. Yes, strange that even before God, I’m self conscious.) grappling with obedience and personal desires. The prayer went like:
Dear God, please prepare a good marriage for me. And please let it be soon, I don’t want to wait till I’m 40 to settle down.
Hmm… but of course, let everything be done in perfect timing, according to your beautiful plan.
Oh, please let him be a God-fearing man. But let me also be happy and have fun with him.
But like I’ve said, in your timing God.
Coz I don’t want to end up with a wonderful man only to lose him very early.
(Touchwood!)
And God, remember my list of 10 must-have criteria? Since you said boldly ask, I’m going to ask for those 10.
Then again, who am I to know what’s best? Dear God, please choose the best criteria for me…
My internal dialogue shows how much thoughts within me conflate…
So hard even to pray… I have so much to learn.
Thoughts on Christian blogs
Christian blogs tend to be a little boring. I guess that's the nature of these things, that:
1. You write after a particularly divine revelation and therefore write rather seriously/humorlessly, still reeling from the shock of the encounter with God.
2. You, or rather I, think that I should cut away the flowery language. Afterall, it's not a good time to show-off when u're meditating about God. I know this assumption doesn't really hold water, Donne and Herbert wrote lots of beautiful verses that impressed readers as they exalted God. But I'm not that talented la...
3. It's written for personal reference. And I like to cut myself some slack. =)
4. Being personal, details are unnecessary because you were there and you know.
5. Again, because it is so personal, there are certain details and weaknesses that I'm still hesitant and unwilling to share online. And as we all know, it is often the detail that makes any read riveting.
As it is, this probably explains my dilemma. Where I make this blog public, linking it to my online profile in order that I might be witness to God's majesty and work in my life. (Now that I feel more confident about admitting that I'm Christian... another long story.) Yet, I am hesitant to publicize it coz I don't want this to reiterate (yet again) the boring, stuffy Christian stereotype which is absolutely inaccurate.
Sometimes, I think I think too much. Should have just put the whole lot above into prayer.
*sheepish "heh!"*
Hallelujah for Healing
Praise God that on Easter Day 2006, during a healing service in her church, my cousin's leg was healed!
This is a condition that she has been born with and it's really exciting to know that miracles happen in our family!
Pray that her faith in God continues and that her healing be complete.
Commemorating
Starting a new blog today to mark a new milestone in my walk with Jesus. This is to commemorate:
1. The first time I successfully invited friends to a church service.Zhang Bo and Li Bo from my English Speaking Corner (ESC) group attended the Easter concert in City Harvest today.
2. The first time that someone I invited accepted Christ!
Yes, thank God that during Pastor Khong's calling and with the ushers' urging, Li Bo went forward to the stage and accepted Christ. To be honest, I didn't really do anything.
In fact, I was such a chicken that I got the ushers to encourage them while I prayed by the side. But nevertheless, I thank God for allowing me to participate in this particular harvest.
Pretty cool for a first time.
Really glad that God revealed my earlier wrong prayers: I've stopped praying that God lets me reap harvests only when I am to go to the mission field. Now, I pray that God will use me all the time in bringing people to Him.
Am really feeling excited and ecstatic. It's wonderful to be part of God's plan.
Now for the follow-up.
Li Bo wasn't quite sure that by repeating the prayer, she is already a Christian. Pray that on City Harvest's side, people will follow up with her. And also that on the VCF-ESC side, proper follow-up will be done on campus.
Of course, pray that I will have God's love, wisdom and endurance in the nurturing process too.
Glory be to God!
