Step by Step
Have been putting my relationship with B to prayer recently."About time." some will say.
Yes, at the way things are going now, it is probably a little too late. But then, better late than never right?
So, on Tuesday (13 June) I asked God what I should do about B. I mean, except for the formalities, we are a couple. And in many sense of the word. Though I accept the fact that if God gives me a sign to break things off with him, I should. But it seems really cruel and unnecessary given the fact that there are many Christian scholars/teachers who propose that when it comes to relationships, there isn't THE one and that we all make our own choices.
Given that, the bible verse of that day's QT was strangely comforting (when I expected God to reprimand me/give me directions).
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"
~ Matthew 6:34~
But of course, the verse comes only after "seek first His kingdom and his righteousness..."
Yesterday (Wed) during prayer meeting at home, I was plea bargaining with God. That I can still be a good, efficient servant with this one area of my life kept to myself. I mean, who ever actually manages to submit all to Christ right?
Then today, I suddenly just felt too saturated with B and asked him to give me some me time. I think seeing him everyday has taken away some of that yearning. In a way, I guess not worrying about tomorrow was a prophetic verse.
Today's QT was Romans 6:1-14, reminded me not to allow parts of my body to be instruments of sin.
Then I read James 1: 19-25 (for worship) and it reminded me to "Do" the word and not just read and forget.
Yikes... God is speaking. Better do something about intimacy issues!
posted by cLoUd DriFteD bY @ 9:29 AM
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